You Decide...

It's cold here in the heat
THe weather vane's spins readily
to take me to another world
that I don't know
THe mother feeds her child's lips
Spread like the black kiss
Bring me back to this place
where I can know

Show me the answers
to the question's I don't dare ask
Afraid of simple matters
Lost inside different paths
Slapstick comedy
on the television screen
makes me even more depressed

Do I frighten even the dead?

I never wanted anything more
BUt this is something I can never have
My heart beats fast and feels sore
I was told always to be last

So I'm lost
does that entitle my demise?
I can only dream

I can still hear the laughter
from the feeling of pain
resemble me a new way out
Because a normal thing is freaking me out

Under dirt there's fruit to be found
But I can't ever have it
The sweetest taste may never touch my lips
I'm forever more trapped alone in thoughts

Call down the angels
This demon in my soul
Cut it open
Find the inner peace
that I can never know

Is this really earth
or am I here a loss?
Should I go into the light
Or block the soul's passage

You decide...

Numb My Brain

How can I decide
To live the losing fight?
Can't I ever get back
the light inside?
Not this time
Not tonight

There's nobody here
I used to see the sights around
THere's nobody here
Just torn up and pain abound

The truth is I don't know
Who I am to say
One more meaning to be
known
I just don't know

THere's nobody here
I seem to remember it better than you
THere's nobody here
I saw it all right through
to the end

How did I get so behind?
Where have I been?
It seems it's grown dark
It's a miracle nobody's changed
Everybody still cares
about their problems they
had in the years

Well I wonder
If maybe I've changed
If maybe I've grown up a bit
THen I realize

THere's no chance for redemption
It's a tip that I took mainly
Straight to the vein
I question everything

Can you cast a light
so I can see the path I chose
Melt in front of me
I have lost my sight of you
I have lost my sight once again

Forever haunted by a disaster
One more verse in a hymn
I wonder if this little pain
is a cancerous vision
to the future?

I couldn't cut it as what I once was
Seems I ready to change again
Like a fly lost with no wings
I thought I knew you
I thought I knew everything

It's not like me
to question myself
but this time I'm taking
a chance that I'm breaking
I'm wrong
I know this I'm okay
tommorows only a day away
No

One more time
What time is it?
WHo cares
Not I timed it
THe time is right
Here's to you
I don't care
Salud

Waste not want not
that's what they all say
Who care's fuck you
I don't know the answers

New year's resolutions
lost in a pity of regret

Oh
Promise are all set in stone
Fucked up it was just glass
shattered in my eyes

Raven's and crow's
spread their bitter taste
One more line to go
I'm sick of crossing bridges
Just so I can burn them to hell

God has turned his back on us
Let's rise up for a spell

I can feel it in my gut
THe distance of the smut
I don't give a shit whens it done
It was all too much

Burn that bridge you said you loved
I can't wait to watch it fry
I just don't care anymore
THere's only so many doors

TO say
to save

THis is for you

Halfway the sunset will burn out
Torn out from under my eyes
Migrate to the otherside
I just don't see the feeling anymore

Drain the pressure and it goes down
THe sensation will be pleasent
Let me down
It's all gonna be allright
Numb my brain

I've torn out my gums before
I'm sure I can do it again
Scars cris-cros along my arms
Are they knew I just don't know?
It's better then air

Let me out
It's all going to be allright
Numb my brain
GIve me one last first kiss
Numb my brain
Please make it go away
Numb my brain
Please make it go away
Just numb my broken brain
Let me out
Numb my brain
Somethings not working here
I ask you one last time
Please just numb my broken brain...

Throug A Glass Darkly

Kill the stone
Sometimes it's waiting that hurts
All I've known

Through a glass darkly
Maybe I'm just a little stoned
I just can't quite
get the figures right
wrapped
around my gnarled fingers
I'm a little loaded

Hold on till it breathes
Somethings got a hold of me
Roll over me
In my head it's out of mind
I'm only a day behind

That's why
Some day's are really a hard case
Kiss me deadly
I need the taste of fate

There's a tame dancer
Spinning round
and round
of the may pole's undead singer's

Another wasted day
Keep it out to dry
Another snorted line
Cut with sulfuric powder

My mind is out
I thought maybe I should go
Seems to be I was wrong
Fire in my mind

Staple my eyes shut
Set me free

Course

Behind my eyes
there's an agony
Before your forgotten memory
Fantasies spread like cancer
you are skin cancer
eat me away
Eat me away
eat me away
Eat me away

Hypocrisy spent by politics
with gasoline dreams
Kiss the feet of the master
slaves are freed
but one is left to die
the ultimate sacrifice

I feel new
I feel used

Through a glass darkly
I see
bitterness spread upon the walls
blood drips from slit wrists
a child cries in the mist
what comes next
A vision of the hex
I guess this is the end of the line
through that glass darkly

I'm Sorry

If you knew me once
you know me now
I've never changed at all

If I knew you
I probably give in
And somehow brought you down

It seems to be my time to fly
with wings made of glass
watch me fall and watch it shatter

if i hurt you in the past
don't worry about it
karma's catchin' up at last

My memory seems to be
the first thing that's leaving
okay i'm lying
It's more prominent then ever
SO I'm thinking
maybe this is death
maybe I'm just dumb?

I don't know
what to say
but I'm sorry...

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The End Of All That Matters

I. Dead In The Water

Wrap me up in plastic
so I won't fade away from memory
We're all on a journey
to hell with your friends and enemies
I declare who gives a shit
your on a long road to ruin
so far you've made them sick
and for once in a blue moon

Wake up only on the grind
Hidden deep within your mind
You've got guilt I don't understand
Wake up to go back to sleep
A coma patient in the darkest deep
His stitched heart held in your hand

So far so good so what
in the end your deeds mean jack shit
lost in space suffocate
here you are laminated pink slip
i declare a social war
against queen bees and exit signs
your nothing but a stupid bore
keep it lodged with what is mine

Wake up out on the town
all your friends are long gone
you've got guilt I don't understand
locked deep down in time
where is your mind

II. Same Ol' Same Ol'

We hold these truths to be self evident
Are they terrorists or just residents
Set forth to free the slaves
Beat to shit and full of praise

everybody is a fucking waste
can't wait to leave this place
your nothing more than a lost soul
buried in this shallow hole
People suck and that's the truth
But who I dislike is new
Tore apart a puzzle broke
I hope and pray this is a joke

III. Help Me, I'm In Hell

Wait
What is this feeling
welling up inside my head
thoughts of stealing
soon enough we'll all be dead

maybe it's time I saw the light
live to kill and kill to die
welcome to the end of all that matters

eulogy at the wake
dead man walks to his fate
just set the chair on fry

help me, I'm in hell

IV. She

She
she comes to me in my dreams
Tells me that I'm all she needs
Lost
Lost on plain of no regret
She's okay yea I bet
Restless sleep
Worthless creep
Oh so weak
Come out and speak

She
she holds my nose so I'll drink
some kind poison I think
I
I know one I'll pay
Until then I'll stay away
On my own
So I've known
How she's grown

I don't but she's killin me
holds her head to the northern lights
ther's i can feel but my empathy
one hundred thousand suicides

V. Out Of Mouth

I fucked this all up
I don't mind
No
I won't feel the shame

VI. The End Of All That Matters

I don't care
I don't care
I don't care
I don't care
I don't care
I don't care
I don't care

Hope you like your meat rare
You left me floating in dead air
It's my fault again
All that matters has reached the end
and I don't care
I don't care
I don't care

First Post

Well, let me tell you a lil about myself. My name is Kris Tombz but my stage name is z3zn0r r3stl3ss. I prefer to use that or The Suicide King. I am an aspiring poet and always will be. THis 'blog' is just my poems and random thoughts. thanks for reading.