Nicotine. Nitroglycerine

Holding back again The thoughts that react inside my head This happens everytime I can't stay alive if I'm not dead This will fall away At least I pray You've gotten closer To pusing me down off the ledge Sooner or later Your gonna be the reason that I'm dead I'm just a loser Not thinking right now all my thoughts are confused and played this is getting old My body and heart are so lame A picture stays in my head This will fall away At least I pray You've finally reached closure And I'm hanging on by a thread Sooner or later You'll be the reason I'm dead Such a loser Locked inside my cage I'm doing okay I'm feeling down cause I hear no sound One at a time let the reasons you hate me wash over Please so down and explain Why I must sit here forever This is not my side if it's all the same I can't reach the never I can't see the season I will always care Holding back the heart Tearing it apart What does it rain in the steeple? We're facing the end so near Forget the restraints I can't bleed forever At least I don't think so Please let the memories fade If you want, I will go away I can't see the season I will always care yes, it's over now I'm still alive somehow Reach back bless me I need the help now I'm so confused Climb hard to never be free Rescue the breeze don't touch me Two sided coin The evil is worse I'm left behind oh pain When will I see closure? A heartbeat slip Relationship Has turned into sick My sedative Your like my nicotine Nitroglycerine I'm addicted to a destructive force I guess It could be worse Takin the fall again i will always see nothing at the end Will you Help me be alive? i don't care about the choice I don't care about the voice I heard in my dream the one that made me scream I've lost the message You taught me how to live Hung upon a cross St. Micheal fights for what is right So I can sleep tonight One day I became so lost and hung upon a cross Every day in the year I've felt so insecure I'm standing here still waiting But I'm beginning to debate Why I wait? deadbeat reject Hey I'm the one who has no voice anymore